Shallow

Fantasy is the power or process of creating especially unrealistic or improbable mental images in response to psychological need, or

a mental image or a series of mental images (such as a daydream) so created

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/fantasy

“We’ve got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen.”

“She was always waiting, it seemed to be her forte.”

“There’s lots of good fish in the sea…maybe…but the vast masses seem to be mackerel or herring, and if you’re not mackerel or herring yourself, you are likely to find very few good fish in the sea.”

“Neither was in love with a young man unless he was she were verbally very near: that is unless they were profoundly interested, talking to one another. The amazing, the profound, the unbelievable thrill there was in passionately talking to some really clever young man by the hour, resuming day after day for months…”

D.H. Lawrence – Lady’s Chatterley’s Lover

And then there are days like today….. a day where you have to search for the clouds. A day where the sky is bright, blue and clear: like those bluest of blue eyes. Snippets from my favourite novel, and my favourite actor. All in one day. Fantasies. Shallow dreams. Fantastical tales. And a clear, blue sky full of potential. I become Lady Chatterley for a wonderful, exciting few hours…… getting lost in the blue expanse…….blue which you can drown in and lose yourself forever…..

In my fantastical dream the text popped up on my phone. I respond….. I have had some practise lately…. Technology: isn’t it amazing to be able to chat to someone thousands of kilometres away, over the expanse of an ocean; and still feel the closeness. A stranger; but yet so very familiar. I would recognise those bright blue eyes anywhere, because I have lost myself in them many times before….

My clear blue dream of hours of chatting; like-minded individuals sharing thoughts, likes, dislikes, and some underlying lust: a lust for life? Sexual lust? Seeking companionship? Loneliness? Lusting for love. Shallow indeed…….so unlike me.

No. Life cannot be this easy.

Impossible.

A dream.

A shallow dream?

No, I wish I could dive off the deep end………

I will listen to the song and go to bed with sweet dreams,

and imagine myself looking into those bright blue eyes: for real

What a wonderful, shallow dream..

See you in my next dream, blue eyed man!

“Shallow”

Tell me somethin’ girl
Are you happy in this modern world?
Or do you need more?
Is there somethin’ else you’re searchin’ for?

I’m falling
In all the good times I find myself longin’ for change
And in the bad times I fear myself

Tell me something boy
Aren’t you tired tryin’ to fill that void?
Or do you need more?
Ain’t it hard keeping it so hardcore?

I’m falling
In all the good times I find myself longin’ for change
And in the bad times I fear myself

I’m off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I’ll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can’t hurt us
We’re far from the shallow now

In the sha-ha-sha-ha-low
In the sha-ha-sha-la-la-la-low
In the sha-ha-sha-ha-ha-low
We’re far from the shallow now

I’m off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I’ll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can’t hurt us
We’re far from the shallow now